I got myself in a bit of a tizzy this morning.
Have you ever done this? Tizzied out? Gotten all frazzled on your own account?
It’s not super fun. And it makes you feel a little out-of-body while it’s happening. You know you’re being a jerk, and you know you’re saying things you don’t exactly mean, but you can’t help yourself.
Basically, I’m adjusting to some transitions in my already pretty packed schedule. I’m hitting up more open mics and comedy shows late at night – which I love. And I’m also trying to still get up in the early mornings for workouts- which I also love. And I’m trying to spend lots of time working on my own creative projects- which I love. Meanwhile, I’m trying to have actual income through my day job- which I’m lucky enough to truly enjoy as well.
So I can put myself in a tizzy by pushing the expectations I have for what’s possible on a daily basis. I woke up tense and spent all morning tensely working on several projects. And I could have been okay…if I hadn’t gone to the post office to get stamps. Only to find out the post office was out of stamps. No wonder they’re going out of business.
And then it was game-on for tizzyland. I was so angry and anxious and frustrated and tense and I didn’t like the feelings at all- they were just there. I wish I had more time in the day. I wish I had more money in my pocket. I wish I didn’t have to sleep away 5-7 hours every night because it’s so unproductive.
But mostly I wished I could relax a little and enjoy the moment.
But the thing about getting yourself into a tizzy is, the very thing you want to do- stop being in a tizzy- is what you focus on so hard that it puts you in more of a tizzy! A downward spiral of frustrating tizzyness!
I did eventually get out of it. I went to the gym. I got some things done. I got to work. I ate a sandwich. I took a breath. I relaxed. I returned to normalcy.
And now that I’m out of that state of mind, I need to remind myself to enjoy the journey. It’s easier said than done when it’s tax season and the bill collectors come calling and there are classes and marketing to invest in while trying to maintain rent and basic car expenses… but there’s a part of me that knows deep down, I’ll miss the feeling of the struggle once so many goals are attained.
So I’m glad I got in a tizzy. It was a reminder to be more proactive about maintaining a positive outlook. And to be more proactive about taking care of myself and my needs while on this crazy journey. It will be all worth it once the investment starts paying dividends.
A cool thing happened in the height of my tizzy. Florence and the Machine’s “Shake it Out” played on the radio right as I turned it on. And that song does something to me that definitely helped calm me down. Probably worth the $1.29 investment on iTunes to prevent further tizzies from gaining too much momentum in the future.
So shake off those tizzys before you make yourself dizzy.