I don’t know what I’m doing. 
This revelation is not shocking to anyone who I’ve hung out with for more than five minutes.
The picture in this post I hope confirms that.
I generally have no idea what I’m doing anywhere ever.
But here’s what I do know… I learn by doing. I do something. I do anything. I’m a do-er.
I don’t mind being wrong. I don’t mind asking questions. I don’t mind screwing up. I don’t mind falling flat on my face. In fact, as strange as it sounds, I like to be out of my comfort zone. I like to be the least knowledgeable one in the room. I like starting something with blind faith that I’ll learn how to finish it as I go. I do my absolute best to present a project that I’m proud of knowing that it will be imperfect. I do my best to make it as perfect as I can with what I have in the moment, then I let it loose.
It’s the same with these posts and this blog. I write it. I think about it. I reflect. Then I just do. I put it out there and see what happens.
One of my improv teachers used to emphasize just finding things in your environment and doing something with them immediately, then learning what it means to the scene later. You don’t need to know the answer in the beginning. Just do something and you’ll eventually figure out why you’re doing it.
I’m a firm believer that’s the only way to really learn something anyway. Any lesson I’ve ever truly learned has come through experience. You can tell me all you want not to do something, but I’m probably going to do what I want to do anyway. Because when I experience my own shortcomings or my own failures, I feel them fully. They become a part of my own life that I can grow upon. They’re new tools and stories I have that I can use to make different decisions in the future.
Like with the web series I’m in post-production for right now. I wrote it not knowing how it would get produced. Somehow, we found the perfect director who had access to an amazing and talented team of people willing to be a part of the project. My partner and I did a crowd-sourcing fundraising campaign not knowing how those work. We raised enough to make something a reality. We didn’t know how, but we’d make it work. We had hectic schedules and didn’t know how we would coordinate, but we just did it. I’d never been a “producer” before- making sure the locations were available and appropriate, coordinating people, making sure everyone was fed while still knowing my lines and watching all continuity. I had no idea how much planning and coordination went into every single shot we did, but I learned. I didn’t know how we would edit it. But we found someone perfect. I have no idea what it means to be in post-production, but I’m excited to learn. Anything I don’t understand how, I know I can learn bit by bit. I admit that I don’t know how to do something. And by admitting it, I’m totally open to learning.
It’s good to plan. And it’s good to prepare. But I think people can get so wrapped up in doing something “right” that they never actually do anything. And if I’ve learned anything in my short time on this earth, it’s that the actual doing- even though that means often failing- is the most important (and most fun) part of our existence.
How do I know this? From a whole lot of doing.
So just do it.
This post has been sponsored by Nike.*
*This is completely untrue but I’m totally open to getting money from you, Nike, if you’ve got any to spare.**
**I know you do. So give me money. Just do it.
I may have mentioned before I’m a bit of a weirdo. I create alternative personalities who live lives on their own. I refuse to admit that I’m the same person as these alternative personalities. Unless you consider what I just wrote as an admission. In which case, I vehemently deny what I just wrote.
Last weekend I went to the San Diego Comic Convention. It’s the largest comic convention in the world. It’s overwhelming and ridiculously crowded and so much fun.
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Listen and you’ll hear why.
Briana Hansen 